and then she left.

Californication, a 2007 american tv series about a writer whose move to California and a writer's block cause problems for his relationship with his wife and daughter. he is plagued by personal demons, including a sex addiction that basically fills up the bulk of the show's airtime. but no, ur not gonna see much of that when it runs on local tv. this is singapore.

im not exactly hooked to e show but i like e following. this scene says so much. not e usual kind of breakup or rejection or unrequitedness. u can feel e weariness. he's drained. it's like a sort of mature understanding that u have to let go. that leaving is e only option. or rather, unlike usual, she is leaving, u don't have to. n she's leaving u in a terrible, static ditch that ur already resigned to.

u happy?
just a simple question. are u happy?

i don't even know what that means anymore.

does he make u happy?

yes.

bullshit. no.
did i make u happy?

u didnt make me happy. u made me fucking insane.

ur saying i never made u happy, i made u insane.

oh yea. once upon a time u made me happy. but then u made me crazy.

well. that's a hell of a way to sum up a decade-long love affair.

well, mr moody. how would u sum it up?

i would say we loved each other too much. too much.
and i think i made a mistake in trying to get it right the first time. and that put an insane amount of pressure on us to keep it going.
and we buckled.

u don't wanna be with me. u think i know u think u do.
ur not in love with me, hank. ur in love with the idea of love.